I Hate How Much I Love You

I hate how much I love you,
Because you walked away anyway,
I hate how much I miss you,
Every moment of every day.

I hate that you’re in my mind
I hate that you’re in my heart
I hate how you left me,
My world turned upside down and all apart.

I hate the wet pillows
Left by my tears at night
I hate this heartache battle
No matter how hard I try, I won't win the fight.

I hated it when you said “this is it for now”
My heart knew you were gone for good,
I hate that I believed you anyway,
Look where it left me, Look where I stood...

Arms empty and heart broken,
I drove away late that night,
My eyes watered and my heart ached,
It just didn't feel right...
To hate the one who taught me to love,
But the worst part of it all,
I hate how I can’t hate you...
Not a lot, not a little, not even at all.